There was a day when I realized that I needed to focus more on Niles if I truly wanted him to be my Service Dog. Maybe it was the day that Bady had trouble jumping into the SUV and he had to sit on the floor in the front passenger seat to get home. Maybe it was the day that I said to Bady, “Let’s go to work!” and he turned away from me to settle on the rug. Maybe it was the day he woke up from a nap with a howl of pain, hip sore and lame. Bady is getting old and it is time.
The transition has been hard. Much harder than I expected. I love Niles, but I TRUST Bady. Bady accompanied me through some very dark times. Bady led me to the light. Bady knows what I need when I need it. Bady saved my life.
Niles is all love. He is joy and exuberance and enthusiasm. A goofy four-year-old German Shepherd. He makes me laugh and drives me to distraction at the same time. And he is ready. Ready to take on more responsibility. Ready for me to trust him. Bady needs to rest now so he can enjoy the remaining moments of his life. If he works with me he has less energy for fun walks and playing ball and belly rubs. (Well, there is always enough energy for belly rubs!)
You may have noticed that I’ve renamed my blog. (And you may have noticed that I haven’t been here for a really long time!) My intention is to focus less on domestic violence and sexual assault and more on hope and living life with anxiety, depression and PTSD. Bady and Niles are a big part of that life and will be frequent subjects of my posts. I am sure I will throw in an advocacy bits here and there. Work and family will also make appearances.
The new name of my blog comes from a poem by one of my very favorite poets, Wendell Berry. (Poetry may also appear here, as well as reflections on faith.)
There is a day
when the road neither
comes nor goes, and the way
is not a way, but a place.
~ Wendell Berry, A Timbered Choir
“There is a Day” will continue to be a blog of The Bady Partnership. I have no idea if The Bady Partnership will ever become anything beyond this blog, but this blog is enough. The road doesn’t have to come or go, we can just be present here in this place. And I have my canine partners ~ one active and one retired ~ with me right here.