Partners in Peace

It’s been a while since I posted any pictures of my handsome German Shepherd boys, Bady and Niles. Here are two recent pictures of my partners in peace. As you can see, Niles is all grown up. He’s bigger than his big brother, but Bady can still keep up with him. Yesterday was an important…

A Piece of my Story: Presence

Yesterday’s post was meaningful to me because it was a description of an experience of being present. Post-traumatic Stress Disorder robs you of the present moment because you are constantly living in the past or planning for the future. In the moment described in yesterday’s post I was simply and fully in the present, observing…

Random Musing: Survivor

In her “Healing Thought” for today Michele Rosenthal of Heal My PTSD writes: “‘Taking back the power trauma steals from you begins with taking back your power to name yourself – not as a survivor but as something else.‘ Oh, yes! It’s time to change your label. If you couldn’t use the term ‘survivor’ to…

A Piece of Our Story: Engagement

The great thing about dogs is that they live in the moment.  They don’t spend time dwelling on the past or worrying about the future.  They engage in the here and now.  Niles has been a great example of this for me.  In his puppy way he simply follows his impulses.  One moment he could…

Random Musings: Birthdays

Two of my favorite guys had birthdays last week.  Niles turned 8 months.  Gary turned 45.  To celebrate Gary’s birthday we had dinner with friends and then went out to a show of the Upright Citizens Brigade.  The UCB show started at 9:30pm at the FynnSpace in Burlington.  Those of you who know me well…

Quick Quote: Planning

Several weeks ago Michele Rosenthal of Heal My PTSD shared this quote from Victor Hugo: He who, every morning plans the transactions of the day, and follows that plan carries a thread that will guide him through a labyrinth of the most busy life.  I share this here because I think it is true.  During…

Random Musing: These Faces

Sometimes life is difficult, painful and just plain hard.  Other times life seems easy, synchronized and just plain fun.  I’m sure this is as true for those without PTSD as for those of us living with it.  I’ve been going through one of the difficult times.  Life feels more like a ‘slog’ than a ‘slide’. …

A Piece of My Story: Feeling

Lately I have been noticing how my body experiences emotions.  One of the (many) symptoms of PTSD is numbing.  Numbing is when feelings and emotions are pushed aside or not experienced fully.  For someone suffering from PTSD the physical experience of emotions can be scary.  For me, the physical experience of fear, anxiety and worry…

A Piece of My Story: Back to the Future

Today is the 12th anniversary of my assault.  It is hard to believe that 12 years have passed.  The first seven of those years were battling ~ and not fully understanding ~ my PTSD symptoms.  While many good things happened in those seven years, it was also a sad, hopeless time.  The past five years…

Community Cares: Psychiatric Service Dog Study

In my previous post I mentioned participating in a Service Dog study with a University of Vermont graduate student.    The study is specifically focused on Psychiatric Service Dogs assisting people with mental health disorders.  It was a great privilege to lend my experience to this study.  Since being partnered with Bady my PTSD symptoms are…

Community Cares: Service Dog Laws

A few weeks ago I was interviewed by a University of Vermont graduate student for a research project on Psychiatric Service Dogs.  A friend alerted me to the study and I contacted the student.  When we met I expressed concern that she wouldn’t be able to use me for her study since Bady is not…

Community Care: Healthy Bodies, Minds and Spirits

There are so many ways to heal from trauma.  Since starting this blog, I’ve learned about the variety of ways people find hope after experiencing a traumatic event ~ music, yoga, equine therapy, canine partnerships, recreational therapy, video games, art…. the list goes on and on.  My healing journey began in earnest when I was…